| It's been two years since I posted an entry on Xanga. That's an interesting thought. Two years have gone by, and here I have proof of my former high school life. I realize now that I everything I posted about was trivial, stupid and wouldn't matter two years later. But somehow I thought that that days trajedy would last for ever. I am thinking of the last two years and the big changes since then. Another two years of dealing with my brothers on and off addictions, seeing him get married. Losing my grandfather, the best man I will ever know. I experienced real love only to have it go unreturned. I found something else besides theatre to be passionate about. I found my faith and finally completed a conversion to Judaism (probably the most exciting thing to ever happen to me. I could go on for days about how much I love this part of my life). My parents have decided that since I've been out of the nest for two years, they'll divorce. Two years "on my own" has given me the strength to see what I want and to go for it. I'm enjoying my time as a young adult, making the right decisions and trying not to get my heart broken along the way, whether it be by guys or by unattainable goals. I know that I have the support and love of family and friends, but in the end it's me who has the power to get the grades, to stay involved and to continue my education past the BA level. I love the responsibility, but enjoy the ability to stay a kid. |
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| Apparently I have to post an entry so my account isn't deleted. Does anyone still use Xanga??? PS - I could potentially use this as an outlet for creative thought. But just like the journals I start, this may fizzle out after four or five months... |
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| it all started with the Babe. |
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| Two days. Two friggen days... I need to do something about books, don't I?
Things to do in the next 2 days (if not one day):
- oil change
- pick up prescription
- pick up contacts
- finish packing clothes
- put stuff in trunk
- books
- clean car
- go out with family/SHEY
- clean room up (so it's nice and shiny when I get back)
- remember breathing. |
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|  | Currently Watching
Jumanji
By Robin Williams, Jonathan Hyde, Kirsten Dunst, Bradley Pierce, Bonnie Hunt, Bebe Neuwirth, David Alan Grier, Patricia Clarkson, Adam Hann-Byrd, Laura Bell Bundy, James Handy, Gillian Barber, Brandon Obray, Cyrus Thiedeke, Gary Joseph Thorup, Leonard Zola, Lloyd Berry, Malcolm Stewart, Annabel Kershaw, Darryl Henriques
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Less than a week until I move in. I'm pretty scared. I'm not really ready to leave the nest. I'd rather be a waitress working in NYC trying to get auditions than going to college right now. I know kind of what I want to do, and I hope that you all will pray (whether or not you believe in God) that I have the strength and courage to go for what I want. I hate to say it, but I get a lot of shit from my brother (of all people) when I tell him what I want to be. He always comes back and says "You'll change your major," or "you can't know that right now, Danielle." Well I think I have a pretty good idea. I'm not going to study psychology just because my brother is, like he studied construction management to be like my dad. I'm going to go after what I want. What do I want? No one wants to grow up, but I have to accept this weight of responsibility. - Danielle |
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